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Yeah... the title describes my day...

Ok! I went to work at 9 AM... pretty early for me actually... I was tired as heck. Don came in today, even though he wasn't working, and had me start bagging ice. I kept on this chore for a whopping 2 hours. Then I decided, after filling up one ice cooler completely full, to clean the other empty one. It was really messed up, lots of ice on the bottom. I cleaned most of it up, but I realized I had to dump hot water in it to melt some ice and clean the bottom itself.

Guess what? These ice coolers evaporates water that drips out of the machine through a hole at a bottom. Thats how it disposes of leaks. It leaks into a pan that evaporates the water.

I used a mop-bucket-full of hot water... and kind of dumped it into the whole thing at once.

The mop bucket is kind of a lot bigger than the pan, and the pan overflowed.

I learned something today: our store doesn't put drains under the ice coolers.

I also learned that a mopbucket can hold an assload of water and cleaning it up off the floor around the ice cooler itself is a very time-consuming task.

Why... why can't they use common sense and put a friggin' drain under the damn cooler? What if the whole damn machine broke, huh? Is that small pan susposed to evaporate every freaking ice cube that melts?! No!

I hate the logic of Piggly Wiggly, as well as the managing skills of some of our managers.

I got no break today. I was susposed to get a 10-minute break and a lunch break, but instead the manager chose "no-breaks-for-you".

Then I got to set up a Christmas Tree with Tim, Angela, and Crystal. (Angela and Crystal are real cute, but I think of them as friends.) :D

I saw an old crush, Rebecca, today at work. I was working on the Christmas tree. She didn't even notice me, or if she did she didn't say hi even. Sort of pissed me off... but oh well. I liked her, but I can't say I like her now.

Then I got to walk home. I got home in time to see my mom driving out of the parking spot to come pick me up. I simply waved and said "Thanks for picking me up an hour late".

What a day. I'm mostly thankful its over...

At least I got some food once I got home.

Well... Tori has quit the PW so there goes my dream woman... Katie is going in-and-out as far as me thinking about dating her, and I still have that crush on Jessica.

And I've been thinking about someone else as well. Won't take much to guess who that is, I hope. I know things won't change because she doesn't want to change, but... for now my heart is partly hers.

Life is messed up... You live your life to eventually find out how you SHOULD live your life, and then you die. How morbid, how depressing, how true...

Now if you will excuse me, I still have more work on finding out how I should be living my life. Hah! Like I'll ever figure that out.

Oh, and by the way, ham totally owns turkey. :P
-Kevo

Just a poem I decided to write because I was bored... I was thinking about you know who, so yeah, it kind of ended up being a love poem... if you can even call it that. Anyways, don't judge lest ye be judged! Rawr. :P

~For My Dream to Come True~ -=Kevin Houck=-

For my dream to come true,
To reset what has been done,
Forceful emotions tearing into the heart of a loved one.

For my dream to come true,
To stop time where it stands,
Using the power of one thousand straining hands.

For my dream to come true,
To deny the feelings of others,
Destroying all the hearts of former lovers.

For my dream to come true,
To create a bridge of the heart,
Crossing any boundaries from finish to start.

For my dream to come true,
To crush even my own soul,
Revisiting the pain once caused, and its devestating toll.

For my dream to come true,
To start things over anew,
To keep together that which is due,
To go back to the past I knew,
To bring back those memories so few,
To charm that heart my heart to view,
To return to loving them too...

For my dream to come true,
Reality itself must bend.
Forever together in my heart,
But it is my soul it rends.

To break all reasoning around us,
Just to bring back those emotions,
Too great a cost it asks,
Even for my willing devotions.

For my dream to come true,
One thing I know you'd have to do:

For my dream to come true,
Realize, accept, and return this too...
In my memories, and in my heart... I know I still love you.

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Damn! I got outbid on a DVD kit for XBox! It was $12 and I thought no one would bid on it so thats what my max bid was. The thing costs $30 + tax at a store (even Wal-Mart), but with $12 + $4 s/h I'd save about half the money.

Noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo...!

Oh well... I'll rebid.

I'm getting paid to help buff down the floors at the NFCB (Nat'l Federation Center of the Blind, where my dad works). I work at the PW Friday, but I think I'm coming down with an illness called:
"getting-paid-one-hundred-dollars-to-buff-a-floor-is-much-better-than-thirty-dollars-to-bag-groceries-itis" Its a nasty disease with no known cure that instantly heals itself after 11:00 Friday night. What a coincidence...

$100 :D

I need to get my liscense befoer my permit expires (12/11/03).

I'm out.
-Kevo

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My foot is still messed up and I get to go to work today. :D

Hope Tori is there... I know Potter is going to be, so its not that bad I guess.

Jessica I think I caught looking at me 3 times. I can't be sure because only one time did she not have a real reason to be looking in my general direction, but I hope she actually likes me. I still haven't gotten to talking to her.

Talked to Angel last night. Not much, but still cool. Her birthday was recent. (she 17 now)

I need to fix this DVD a friend let me borrow... I kind of let it stay in my backpack for like a month and now its all scratched up... whoops... I have to buy a new one if my DiscDr can't fix it. (thats $30 out of my next paycheck so this damn DiscDr better do its job)

I've got a lot of games to play on the other hand. Lunar Legends I still have a while to go on. I also have Morrowind expansions to beat and I should be getting Rainbow SIX 3 soon. :D *hugs XBox*

Other than that I'm just expecting a painful 6.5 hour shift dragging what feels like a half-broken foot and ankle. Wee!

I'm still planning my game. I have a long ways to go on it. I'm finishing the character names/descripts and after that I work on the storyline. RPG game of century? I hope.

Well I better get ready for work.
-Kev

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I have had an interesting day. *shrug*

I got an interesting email about something. Well well well...

I saw Tori at work. Yay.

I found out Potter got busted for putting a whole kartfull of go-backs in the damaged items kart. Heh.

They were doing inventory today. Wow.

And if you feel like you want to see something funny, see the extended entry. Its not really funny, more sad and pathetic, heartless, cruel, uncaring, insensitive, unfaithful, etc etc but its ironically comical too!

I feel bad for the poor guy. If you think this is quite familiar (i.e. YOU WROTE IT) then I hope you aren't mad at me taking time out of my day to criticize how bad, wrong, and sad this is. :D
-Yours truly! Kevo

Saturday, November 15, 2003
Well i decided that tommy isnt right for me and there are a lot of other guys out there that i can get,

Tuesday, November 11, 2003
It has been a really long week. I have been with Crystal since friday and now i want to go home to where i can talk to my baby without someone right under me. I feel like i have been babysitting all week. Tommy finally came out and said he loved me and now i know there is no chance in me finding anyone else. Or would even want to find anyone else. I really miss him and i really do love him....

Now let me first note that these two posts are EXACTLY RIGHT NEXT TO EACH OTHER. Saturday's post was right above Tuesday's! I didn't post all of Tuesday's, just the part that mattered.

Tis a sad day when "true love" (accent on the quote-unquote) can go to heck in a handbasket in a matter of 4 days.

Let me say now that I truly feel bad for Tommy. I felt bad for him when I first heard about him. He's in the same boat as me, really, or is about to be. I could go further into this but why should I? My point is clear.

"I love you" "I love you too" "Oh sorry I'm going out with another guy cya" Isn't that pleasant? Isn't that romantic? Isn't that faithfulness? No, its a joke.

I just wanna say, Megan told me "everyone gets their heart broken thats the way the lord made us". Maybe so, but did the lord ever condone it? Did he make people break other people's hearts like her? Heh. What a joke.

Poor Tommy, poor other guys that had the same misfortune. I feel bad for them, maybe some feel bad for me? Who knows...

Oh and to the person that wrote this (which no one should have a hard time guessing since I've only loved one girl so far in my life), I hope you don't feel good about doing this, although I know you think it doesn't matter. You can fool others into thinking you are a nice caring decent person, but they will only love your shadow, your shroud, your lie, because on the inside you only care about yourself. Other people have feelings, and maybe its time for you to start caring about others than for yourself. Looking out for #1 may be required at times but an insensitive uncaring person that would do this to me, and whoever else, doesn't deserve to have friends that only know their good side.

At least the people that care about me I know care about me because I'm a nice caring person. I make it my business to care, even if its not my business to care. Thats what love is. I doubt its my business to pry into your life but I think your mistakes will catch up to you eventually. I don't want to see you get hurt, even if you don't care how much you have hurt me. Thats what love is.

Yeah, thats right. I still love you. Not like I used to, but the fact is I still care about you. But its time that I stop fooling myself. I deserve better than what you are making yourself out to be. You deserve better than the respect you give yourself. I'll preach to a DAMN BRICK WALL if I have to (which I am probably doing) but I won't sit back and watch you do this to yourself and feel bad because I didn't try to stop you. Look around and you will find out you have more people that care about you than you ever realized, you are just too busy hurting yourself to see them.

I hope you can clean up your act someday. You are playing a very dangerous game. Think you're number one? Keep playing with fire, you are the one that's gonna burn up in the end. Take as many people you want with you, but the more you take the more you will get dragged down. You step on people but you're not climbing the hill as much as you'd like to believe. Instead of looking down, look up. See everyone that you thought you left behind rise up above you. Why? Because they care, their souls care about you, even if they know you are just going to step on them again. Maybe thats why you've stepped on me twice now.

Play all you want. Hurt others. Not like you care. As long as you get what you want in the end, right?

That is THE MOST fucked up shit I have ever experienced. You make me sick.

-Kevin

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I just finally figured out how to access my blog properly... I'm a dope. :\

Well I don't like Staci. I didn't have any kind of connection (or click, if you will) like I had with Rebecca (an old crush) or Jessica, and definitely nothing like what I felt for Danielle.

*shrug*

I'm too bored to care about school. I have a 69.5 in Biology, a 65 in Economics, and a 24.5 in English 4. I'm pretty screwed right now (mainly in English).

GetBackers is awesome anime! :)

I have gotten Maelstrom on Merentha to high mortal finally. I have also been playing Morrowind (with the 2 expansions for XBox), and Lunar Legends for GBA. I want to get Rainbow SIX 3, I played the demo and it's pretty cool.

I had to pay for my Cap and Gown for graduation so I've been broke the whole week, until today. I got $73.14 for a paycheck. (damn)

My car still acting up with the battery cables being loose and all. I can't tighten them, they just don't tighten. (either I'm stupid or my car is wierd, probably both)

I'm gonna get ready 4 work now. *yawn*
-Kevo da thief

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For the past two days, I have been going through these things at school. The first day I saw an SRT (Special Response Team) talk to us about how they operate. (They are a phone call away, so we better not bring guns to school) :P

The second day we saw anti-DUI stuff. Movie with dead peoplez because of no seatbelt/DUI problems. Gruesome? Kinda. Oh, and they had these awesome goggles that made your vision distort as if you were drunk. They let you walk around for a while in them, and even drive a golf cart around some cones and shit. It was cool. The Rent-A-Cop from our school, Officer Clemens, only knocked over one cone! (Damn, he must have experience, *wink*)

Those took up first two periods of school. Last period is Study Hall, and third period was substitute teacher. HA! No work for 2 days. :P

Jessica, yay. Potter worked today, and SO DID TORI!

Tomorrow I get served (the red card of school) Saturday Detention. Gahh! Then I get to meet Staci at the skating rink. I don't know whats going to happen yet, but (right now) I only consider her as a friend. HOWEVER, I am taking into consideration her feelings for me, and I'll give her a chance. I pretty much swore that I would never dismiss someone's feelings without giving them a chance, ever. This is mainly because of Danielle. I realized how much it hurts to not give a person the benefit of one chance. Its horrible. Its dispicable. I refuse to break someone's heart just because I didn't have the heart to give them at least the chance that they deserved. (of course, through some peoples actions, like desperate people or sluts, I can pretty much tell they wasted their chance)

Its true, people get their hearts broken, but no fact or opinion justifies breaking their heart in such a cruel, careless, and heartless manner.

If I decide that I want to stay around her longer, I'll ask her if she wants to go see Matrix: Revolutions with me. (of course she will say yes, unless some prior engagement interferes)

If I decide I want to try a relationship with her, then I have a gf. If not, I'll resume trying to get Jessica to go out with me. (If Tori wants me, I'm all hers though!)

Well I have to get to bed. I get to wake up at 7 to go to school. Whoopie. (thrilled to death)

-Kev

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Its been boring so I won't bother posting shit this time.

All I have to say is that I've thought about the girls I like/girls that like me, and I've decided that I'll try to go for Jessica first. She is the only one I have true intentions for. Tori I wanna fuck, Staci wants to fuck me (and I don't know whether I want that or not), and Katie I still don't know about. Jessica I really want to get to know and possibly date.

Katie... Oh yeah, she has this guy that got her number. He has a 7 year old kid and he wants to go out with Katie. First of all, the guy's a frickin adult, probably some kind of child molestor. Second of all... he has a kid... so what happened to the mother? Divorce probably. Over what, her fault or (more than likely) his? And why is he asking her over to his house? *Cough RAPE cough*

I told her to make the descision on her own, but consider the facts. *shrug* I really doubt she is interested in me. Thats another reason I never asked her out, and kind of the reason I won't do it now.

Jessica is one of 3 things I look forward to going to school for. I am starting to think about her away from school now, and it seems that I MIGHT have a chance with her. My biggest problem: she's a lot like me. Thats not bad you say? WRONG! She only talks to friends, she is quiet around ANYONE else. (I think she has caught me staring at her sometimes and even so she won't talk to me, although I think she could be trying to get me to talk to her by staying closer to me than usual now)

(Fav 3 things: seeing Jessica in biology, lunchtime w/ friends [and a good view of Jessica too, I've noticed she hangs around the area I hang out at], and Study hall, my personal FF Tactics Advance playing time.)

I have a 24.5 in English IV. I have very little hope of passing but I will try my best. If I fail, I'll try to take English IV TP instead of CP, I know a teacher that is easy to pass so long as I do some work. My current teacher can be a bitch when it comes to grading... I've seen good papers get C's and D's.

I actually did read a good book in English IV! Read "The Importance of Being Earnest", a short comical play. I liked it, it was pretty funny indeed.

Seems Jason may be helping me and Jason B. with our game. I have to gather & send it to him.

Have you ever watched Cowboy Bebop? If you liked it, you will probably enjoy the anime GetBackers, it starts out seeming like Cowboy Bebop almost, but has different things. Its really cool. Funny, has cool fight scenes too, awesome graphics. If I can get the site from Brandon A., I will post it here, but try and look for it. It should have subtitles, but no dub, it just recently ended in Japan and hasn't yet been liscensed for America (Brandon A. says the manga will be out soon, but he doesn't know how it could relate to the anime).

I'm listening to some music right now. Eminem- Zelda Rap is kind of cool. :)

I am going to bed soon, I actually need sleep for once in my life. *surprise* *dream about Jessica* *smile* *dream about Tori* *SpLoOgE!*
-Kevin likes Jessica, will she like him?~

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I've been playing Merentha with Jason B. who now has internet access. Yay, its about time. I have been helping him with one of his characters and all.

I saw Tori today at work. :)
I really think that I want to ask out Jessica first. I look at Tori as a dream date sort of girl. (more than just a date mind you *wink*) I look at Jessica and think about actually going out with her and being close to her and all that stuff. I have to figure out how to get Jessica to talk to me, she is quiet and shy like me, she only talks to people she knows or is friends with. She sat by me Friday while our class was in the gym so thats a little helpful for my confidence. :)

Staci has sent an e-mail asking questions about me basically going out with her. Its not that I haven't considered going out with her, its that I haven't gotten enough time to see what kind of personality she has. She already wants me to date her. :\

Work is boring. Hot chicks come in at least, so its not that bad I guess.

My PC has been acting up lately. I have freed up system resources and also defragmented but there are errors in the PC. I believe this is due to my brother, and I've found evidence that may point towards him and him alone. (one file that "is not a Win32 application" makes an error message when I sign on XP, its creation time was at a time only my brother could have been on the computer)

I got caught for cutting first period. (YELLOW CARD!) Sentenced to Saturday Detention. Do I feel bad about this? No. I could have gone to tardy hall instead (I was late that day) and gotten a referral for excessive tardies and ended up with AT LEAST Saturday Detention, possibly suspension. At least with cutting class I have the chance of not getting caught... *unfortunately I was caught*

Oh, and you can't play Final Fantasy Tactics Advance for an hour in Tardy Hall either. *grin*

I'm going back to my game now so cyaz.
-Kevo is THICK CUT and HOT "Just the way the ladies like it!"

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